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Putting Ghosts in Their Place

11/06/2014 by ShannonAdmin

Putting Ghosts in Their Place

Putting Ghosts In Their PlaceGreg and I had been married only a few months, but reality was already setting in. The marital bliss was wearing thin.  Things weren’t so hunky-dory any more.  Marriage was proving to be much harder than I thought.  And when I wanted to talk to someone about my fears and frustrations, guess who I naturally gravitated toward?  Call me crazy, but yep, I ran back to an old flame. Let’s call him Ray. (The old Proverb is true — a dog returns to its vomit, and a fool returns to his folly!) Ray’s best response to my disillusionment?  “I could have told you that a woman like you would never be happy with a virgin.”

Greg’s sexual performance hadn’t been an issue at all. But Ray’s comment stuck with me.  One day while Greg and I were about to make love, I pleaded, “I wish you’d approach me with more whirlwind passion!  Come on!  Sweep me off my feet!”

Greg lovingly but firmly replied, “Shannon, don’t ever compare me to someone you had no business being in a sexual relationship with in the first place.”  Yet another Ouch! moment in Shannon Ethridge’s colorful history.  The truth often hurts, even when it is spoken in love.  I had been mentally reminiscing about all of the romantic things Ray had done to make me feel special, yet failing to remember just how dysfunctional our “love” for each other had been!  I apologized to Greg, and banished memories of Ray from our bedroom.

A few years later, I was having one of those dark days that every stay-at-home mom has on occasion. My kids weren’t behaving. The house wasn’t staying clean.  I had no idea what to make for dinner.  And not even Calgon could take me away from the depression that was setting up shop in my spirit as my children stomped on my one last intact nerve.  In my mind, I could almost hear Ray’s words all over again.  “I’m not sure what kind of mother you’d be!”  It had been years since he’d spoke those words, yet it had obviously stuck in my spirit and traveled through life with me, like a big wad of bubblegum that sticks relentlessly to the bottom of your shoe.

That’s when I woke up from that relationship a second time, recognizing that I could no longer be haunted by the ghost of Ray – not in my bedroom, or my living room, or in any other corner of my mind.  He was not an expert in my life, nor a wise counselor, nor spiritual guru. He was not my father, nor even a good example of what a father should be.  He was not my soul mate.  He was merely a blip on my sexual screen, there to alert me of a painful lesson I needed to learn.  I’d carelessly placed my hope and trust in the hands of a man who was only using me to serve his selfish sexual agenda.  It was time to cut that thread from my life’s tapestry so that it didn’t shape any further dysfunctional patterns.  Memories of Ray became merely spiritual markers of where I once was, and how far I’d come since then.

Excerpted from  The Sexually Confident Wife: Connecting with Your Husband Mind*Body*Heart*Spirit  by Shannon Ethridge. Copyright 2008.  All Rights Reserved. Published by Random House Inc, New York, NY. Used by Permission. Not to be copied without Publisher’s prior written approval. 
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